The greatest gift
“Our newly found faith serves as a firm foundation for courage in the future.”
Basic Text, p.93
When we begin coming to meetings, we hear other addicts talking about the gifts
they have received as a result of the program, things we never thought of as “gifts”
before. One such “gift” is the renewed ability to feel the emotions we had deadened
so long with drugs. It’s not difficult to think of love, joy, and happiness as gifts, even
if it’s been a long time since we’ve felt them. But what about “bad” feelings like
anger, sadness, fear, and loneliness? Such emotions can’t be seen as gifts, we tell
ourselves. After all, how can we be thankful for things we want to run from?
We can become grateful for these emotions in our lives if we place them in their
proper perspective. We need to remember that we’ve come to believe in a loving
Higher Power, and we’ve asked that Power to care for us-and our Higher Power
doesn’t make mistakes. The feelings we’re given, “good” or “bad”, are given to us for
a reason. With this in mind, we come to realize there are no “bad” feelings, only
lessons to be learned. Our faith and our Higher Power’s care give us the courage we
need to face whatever feelings may come up on a daily basis.
As we heard early in recovery, “Your Higher Power won’t give you more than you can
handle in just one day.” And the ability to feel our emotions is one of the greatest
gifts of recovery.
Just for today: I will try to welcome my feelings, firm in the belief that I have the
courage to face whatever emotions may come up in my life.