Enough
“Something inside cries out, ‘Enough, enough, I’ve had enough,’ and then they are
ready to take that first and often most difficult step toward dealing with their
disease.”
Basic Text, p.203
Have we really had enough? This is the crucial question we must ask ourselves as we
prepare to work the First Step in Narcotics Anonymous. It doesn’t matter whether or
not we arrived in NA with our families intact; our careers still working for us, and all
the outward appearances of wholeness. All that matters is that we have reached an
emotional and spiritual bottom that precludes our return to active addiction. If we
have, we will be truly ready to go to any lengths to quit using.
When we inventory our powerlessness, we ask ourselves some simple questions. Can
I control my use of drugs in any form? What incidents have occurred as a result of
my drug use that I didn’t want to happen? How is my life unmanageable? Do I
believe in my heart that I am an addict?
If the answers to these questions lead us to the doors of Narcotics Anonymous, then
we are ready to move on to the next step toward a life free from active addiction. If
we have truly had enough, then we will be willing to go to any lengths to find
recovery.
Just for today: I admit that I have had enough. I am ready to work my First Step.