God’s will, not ours
“We know that if we pray for God’s will we will receive what is best for us, regardless
of what we think.”
Basic Text p. 44
By the time we came to NA, our inner voices had become unreliable and selfdestructive. Addiction had warped our desires, our interests, our sense of what was
best for ourselves. That’s why it’s been so important in recovery to develop our belief
in a Power greater than ourselves, something that could provide saner, more reliable
guidance than our own. We’ve begun learning how to rely on this Power’s care and to
trust the inner direction it provides us.
As with all learning processes, it takes practice to “pray only for knowledge of God’s
will for us and the power to carry that out.” The selfish, ego-driven attitudes we
developed in our addiction are not cast off overnight. Those attitudes may affect the
way we pray. We may even find ourselves praying something like, “Relieve me of
this character defect so I can look good.”
The more straightforward we are about our own ideas and desires, the easier it will
be to distinguish between our own will and our Higher Power’s will. “Just for your
information, God” we might pray, “here’s what I want in this situation. Nonetheless,
I ask that your will, not mine, be done.” Once we do this, we are prepared to
recognize and accept our Higher Power’s guidance.
Just for today: Higher Power, I’ve learned to trust your guidance, yet I still have my
own ideas about how I want to live my life. Let me share those ideas with you, and
then let me clearly understand your will for me. In the end, let your will, not mine,
be done.